Am I alone?

It’s all blur, vague, uncertain, unclear and highly confusing. My words are not forming sentences anymore, the body is working on an automated mode. Heart and mind have stopped reacting or analyzing. Is it normal? Am I alone?

Nothing feels good, nothing feels permanent and in fact the stage am at is temporary, I am aware but it’s going on and I am unable to stop. Can I do anything? Is it normal? Am I alone?

I am repeating my mistakes, loosing my focus, facing the fears is not pushing it away anymore instead aggregating. There is no judgement or self-realization. Is it just a phase or the age? Is it normal? Am I alone?

Tomorrow seemed thrilling a while ago but now it’s just another day. Trying to seek support but nothing seems to work because it’s all within. Solution is just right there but there is no execution. Can I even do it? I ask. Is it normal? Am I alone?

Is communicating a solution to mental health anymore because it just seems to be reminding on constant basis than bringing relief, I can hear myself speak negativity making myself more remorse. Is going silent an option because no words are spoken right. Am I making it up? Is it normal? Am I alone?

I am feeling tired all the time, I sleep for long hours thinking my body needs it yet regretting instantly. My priorities are straight, I know what I want yet feeling helpless. Am I making excuses? Is it normal? Am I alone?

Losing the difference of Day and night, becoming too monotonous and boring. I don’t want to cook not want anything to eat. I am hungry and craving for delicious food but there is no pleasure anymore. Am I complaining? Is it normal? Am I alone?

I can feel the thoughts running around but I want to run instead, really far away. Don’t know from what to where? Everything makes me upset, is the change that I need or a different mindset? Am I losing the perspective ? Is it normal? Am I alone?

I smiled today for a second but it vanished in no time, I felt guilty for hassle mind yet smiling. Not accomplishing anything yet smiling. Acting like a failure yet smiling. Is it demotivation? Is it normal? Am I alone?

I can pretend nice but not hide by words, I cry over and over not feeling better. I have stopped working at all. Am I troubled? Is it normal? Am I alone?

Is not feeling normal normal? Am I alone feeling alone? Can I ask again? Am I alone?